there's a reason why i love being who i am.  and it's simply because my life is uncomplicated.  well, to say one's life is uncomplicated sounds dubious in itself as i'm sure our lives are equally complicated as the person sitting next to us on the train.  but here's what makes mine different. 

i chose for my life to be uncomplicated.  i steer away from life's dramatics, unless it pushes me against the wall demanding attention.  i try to keep away from those factors that will make me lose my mind.  if i can't avoid them, then i zero in on the problem and i work on eliminating the issue right away. 

i have friends who i can always rely on to.  people who keep me grounded.  with rK for example, i literally could spend the whole day talking with her.  analyzing the relationship problems she's having or we'd analyze the mess i sometimes get myself into.  we'd analyze so we'll get to the bottom of things and from there, know how to handle our issues.  we'd rant for the most part, but it's more of so we can device ways as to uncomplicate things.  ending up that the problem wouldn't seem as complex as it was in the beginning. 

i have stopped talking to my eXs frankly because i don't want the emotional baggage.  i don't want that everytime i'd go out with somebody new, i'd have to explain how my ex and i are "just friends".   it's hard enough to make a relationship work, but even harder if your past still hovers around.  as i said, i try to live a simple life.  eXs can be friends, yes.  but do keep your distance as we both have different priorities.  and sad to say, you lost your footing in mine when "we" didn't work out. 

an ideal guy for me is somebody who doesn't have unbearable hang ups.  somebody who is secure with who he is. where he as been (past mistakes and faults included) and who he can be with me.  somebody who's going to complement me, my weaknesses and strengths in every way possible.  somebody whom i can have an effortless relationship with --- no pretensions, no mind games and enough of the i'll-say-one-thing-yet-i'll-act-differently attitude.  somebody who's willing to make compromises simply because he knows i'm worth it.  and above everything else, i'd want that somebody to fall in love with how my mind works... and not just with how i make him feel. 

people i know tell me i'm mature beyond my years.  maybe so.  but i guess i just try to view things as simple as possible.  maybe a lot of my being so has to do with me growing up in a nurturing environment.  not much of hatred around and again, no emotional baggage. i just wish that years from now, this will still be the way i see life.  simple.  uncomplicated.  possible.